Crunch Time!

Four months to go!

I have so many mixed feelings right now. Currently, it's a mix of exhaustion, excitement, nervousness and sadness. The first three have to do with the wedding, the last is because I'm going back to Indiana in the morning and will be away from Ryan for a month. I know it could be worse, but I'm a big, whiney baby. I can't help it.

Currently, I'm in a glass half full type of mood - so I'm considering the fact that I'm going to be insanely busy doing wedding stuff while I'm in town a good thing. I imagine that will change about a week in when I don't want to look at one more flower or favor idea, but here's hoping I stay positive.

Planning this thing has definitely been tougher than I thought. I never, ever realized how many details go into the wedding. Everything is color coordinated - from linens to flowers to favors.

I suck at color coordinating.

Oh well. I'm lucky. My mom is really into this, and I have the best Matron of Honor on the planet. They're both pretty amazing. My mom is one of the most organized, detail oriented people I've ever met. I didn't get that gene. She has binders, calendars, computer files, spreadsheets, word documents - you name it. I have a binder (that she put together) a couple spreadsheets (that she sent me...or made me do) and a ton of folders (that I did on my own...thank you very much).

I sure am glad my mom is organized though. She's thought of everything. There's now way I could plan this without her.

And then there's my Matron of Honor, who is there for literally whatever I need her for. She's come to bridal shows and planning meetings with vendors. Not to mention listening to me talk about the wedding at least 70% of the time. I know that I get annoying...I'm trying to be better about it. But, she assures me that it's fine, which is just one small part of what makes her great.

All in all, I'm excited. These next four months are going to fly by.

And I. Can't. Wait.